9:33 am - Monday, Jun. 04, 2007
worriness of nursing
Well I thought since it's been awhile... here i am.
Exams are in less than a weeks time. I'm not feeling as confident as I could be. Maybe I should have done more study during non-exam week but I guess I'm lazy. I'm getting to a stage where I'm getting really sick of study. I know holidays are in three weeks but yeah.. I'll only have to go back to uni again soon anyways.
Well I failed the Acute Nursing exam. Acute nursing is the subject where you go on clinical placement and because that exam is worth 50% of the course marks I have to do a resit to be able to pass the course. Which means I have to go well in this clinical challenge next week. Oh damn. Now, that's what I'm stressing about it. I'm sure it will end up being okay but it doesn't stop me worry in the time being.
So yes I'm worried if I don't do well in this clinical challenge and I'll fail the course. Which means this semester was a whole waste of time. Acute nursing is a pre-requisite for TWO subjects next semester so basically if I fail Acute nursing I don't see the point coming back next semester. It sucks. But who said I'm going to fail? I won't. I just have to try really hard.
It be easier if I had more friends at uni. The problem still exists. I just don't feel like any of those people want to be my friend. It's weird. Maybe I'm just the person who's not meant to have a lot of friends.
Even my friends now, Amy, Kim and Amy. Haven't heard from them. Sure it's Kimmy's bday on friday and I'll be going out (day before the exam, I might add) but the only time we do catch up is birthdays/special occassions. I really do miss them. But do they miss me? I'm not sure.
Probably one of the reasons why I miss high school. There was a lot more people there that I felt comfortable with than at uni. And of course I got to see my friends everyday. Now it's months till I see them again. It's not like we're all that busy. We should spend time together otherwise we're gonna keep going further and further apart.
I am trying to spend time with them. But someones always busy with study, family and now amy with her new boyfriend, Roy. I know it's hard with Aaron but I'm only at his house TWO days of the SEVEN day week. I'm sure they can find some time. I know I will. Just to spend some girly time with them. How I miss shopping :(
Anyways I better get back to studying. That is all for now, I think. :)
